Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Coffee for Your Heart #22 ~ preach it!

Go grab a cup of coffee and sit a spell with me. We're talking about letting go of fear and living as God calls us to. 

It's time to trust and embrace ALL He has in store for us.This is from the heart, from me to you. 

Know you are loved. 

You are prayed for. 

You are never alone. 

No matter what!

Coffe for Your Heart # from Mary Lenaburg on Vimeo.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

we interrupt this break with tacky mucus...what????

Good morning all! 

Yes, I am still on a little social media break but I wanted to pipe in with a little story during NFP Awareness week. Many of you amy be saying NFP what?? That is after you are over the shock that I used "tacky mucus" in my header. It got your attention didn't it??

Excellent...so now that I have you attention, you can read all about our story and why NFP can not only heal a marriage but make it better than you ever imagined. You can also check out Simcha Fisher's awesome blog at Patheos where she is giving away some wonderful prizes this week including a handmade quilted baby quilt made by ME!! 

Keep those prayer requests coming. God is working and moving in amazing ways my friends. I look forward to seeing you in nine days. 

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

keep calm, drink coffee and pray...

I'm here. I am. Thanks for your bloggy patience. Things here keep moving forward wether I am ready for it or not. As long as there is coffee in the pot, I can face whatever the day brings...I think. 

The good news is Miss Courtney gained another pound so we are hanging out at 91 pounds now. Yay! The every two hour feeds are working. So very happy that they are working. The constant worry and stress I have felt about this particular issue has been relieved a bit. We will just keep going with the current plan and hopefully she will continue to gain one or two pounds per week. Only time will tell. 

In other good news, due to the generosity of some pretty wonderful people, we have enough to cover the co-pay on Miss Courtney's new wheelchair seat. Such a relief to know she will have what she needs to help her sit without pain or discomfort in her wheelchair. Thank you Lord for that gift. Once more our daughter is cared for with much love.

In the bad news department, Big Bertha the Wheelchair Van has another cracked coil or two which means she is sidelined until next payday. One was replaced during the last go around three months ago. Everything else is fine on the van but each coil replacement is about $230-$300. So we will wait upon the Lord and be patient for another ten days or so until we can take care of it.

This means Miss Courtney and I are homebound during the day for the foreseeable future. We are getting pretty good at this, combining home based Mama lead PT sessions with homemaking, story time, crafting, walks in the early morning for Mama, snuggles with Miss Court in the comfy chair and a little baking as well. We don't have any doctors appointments scheduled for another few weeks, so hopefully once we replace the coils all will be right again.

Since I have already used up my one freak out allowed per month, I have chosen to be calm and practice a little bit of that "trust" I have been working on these days. Trust that all will be well. There are so many things going on in the world to pray about, so many things here at home and many friends who needs the support as well.

I decided as I was having my quiet time this morning that now was a good time to take a little blogging break. Not to worry it's just for the next ten days. You won't miss me a bit. I won't be here, on Facebook or Instagram either. Cold turkey baby.

I'm taking this little social media fast with a purpose mind you. I think it's time to get that prayer list going once again. It is my plan to spend the next ten days in quiet and prayer for you and with you.

So please leave your prayer requests in the comments or you can email me (mary_romance@cox.net).

I will add them to Miss Courtney's Pink Prayer book and we will spend dedicated time each day bringing your prayers and ours to the Good Lord above. He has done so much for us...so very much...

It is a honor to pray for you...always an honor...

Sunday, July 20, 2014

what i wore ~ vol. 59...pseudo preppy

It was a very early morning for me or at least it felt like it. I stayed up a little too late last night hand quilting a baby quilt for charity while indulging in a little Hawaii Five O on DVD. Any time I can spend with Alex McLaughlin, I am a happy girl. 

After  I deep cleaned the master bedroom and went through my closet yesterday, I found this skirt in the back of the closet. I have had it for at least a ear, maybe two. I am a freak about paisley, large prints and bold colors.  Combine any of those and you may see me do a closet happy dance.

Once I chose the skirt, the rest of the outfit just fell together. Hot pink tank, navy shrug sweater, kelly green flats. Done!  I think it's the first time I have worn these three pieces together, but I have owned them all for quite a while. The skirt and tank are from Talbots, the shrug from Lane Bryant, and the shoes from DSW.

Hope you have an awesome Sunday!!

Go take a photo and join us won't you? Head on over to FineLinenandPurple and link up. Then you can head over here to Watch What I'm Wearing, celebrating modesty and fashionI'm also over at Sunday Style @ Plane Pretty , Tucker UpGet Your Pretty On and The Pleated Poppy. It's a party!

Saturday, July 19, 2014

you know that time I let the devil won...not no more...

So it's 24 hours post freak out and I have once again achieved peace and serenity. 


Who am I kidding?? 

First,  I went onto Facebook last night and asked for hep. I love Facebook for that very reason. When I need a little guidance or input I'll get it. 

I emailed a pediatrician friend of mine and she walked me through a recipe to make my own ointment for Miss Courtney, using a combo of over the counter items. It will be called "Miss Courtney's Happy Butt Balm". I look forward to many days of no rashes and happy little butt cheeks for my daughter at 1/16 of the cost. 

Can I get an amen??  Yes! 

I promise to share the recipe once I have it all done in the coming days. This incident got me thinking about how many things I just accept when it comes to Courtney's care. I pay the co-pay and don't think about it. After all there are so many details to take care of that wherever I can catch a break I try to take advantage of it. 

No more of that. 

We will be rethinking some little things in the coming weeks to help streamline costs as well as have a purer, healthier alternative for her where we can. 

I hate it when I let the devil win. I hate that in the heat of the moment I freak out and forget that God has my girls back in all things, including $375 diaper ointment. I still have much work to do my friends to trust without freaking. 

Much work to do. 

Today, I deeeeeepppp cleaned my master bedroom and my sewing area,  I washed, folded and put away three loads of laundry, did some PT floor work with my Courtney, then went through my closet and pared things down to one size instead of the three different sizes I had in there. 

I love losing weight. I am only 1/3 of the way there but it sure feels good to get even a pound or two off this week. 

Then I made vegetarian chili for the fam and the hubby made the best skillet corn bread this side of the Mississippi. My man, he got some skilz!! This was followed by a cup of Butter Brickle ice cream. 

NOW I feel peace and tranquility once more. 

Crap,  I just saw my shoe pile and well, I'll deal with that tomorrow. 

Thank you for your prayers, your words of encouragement, your ideas and your just plane awesomeness. I don't know what I would do without you friends. 


Friday, July 18, 2014


...sometimes I have trouble with tunnel vision...I can only see what needs to be done...or bills need to be paid...or floors need to be washed...or bathrooms scrubbed...or laundry folded...or meals made...feedings given...you get the drift...all I see is negative and it makes me grumpy...not pleasant to be around...short tempered...yep...today was one of those days...the mail came...more envelopes with windows...the mortgage needs to be paid...so do twenty other things...payday come and goes...all within thirty minutes...it's a constant stress here...it's one I struggle with...it's one I dream of being rid of one day...maybe one day...maybe...I get stuck in this negative head space worrying about how it will all be taken care of and I lose perspective on the beautiful young woman who fights to be here everyday...we had a long night last night...seizures came and went...Mama calmed and soothed...rocked and sang...Miss Courtney fell back asleep around 3 a.m...I crawled back into bed and had a tough time sleeping...so many things running through my head...how much more will God ask of me and my girl...how many more years of caregiving are ahead of my hubby and I...will we ever get a full nights sleep...how will we handle the expenses that will come...how will I get everything done in the house when I am spending so much time holding Miss Court...will I ever have the energy to workout again...or cook dinner...I am so tired...so very tired...needless to say I did not get back to sleep quickly...Miss Courtney was wide awake at 8 a.m. as if nothing had happened and this Mama feels like I have run with the bulls and lost...badly...thank goodness for the healing power of caffeine...I have ingested quite a bit today already and I sense there will be more...the worry is still there...I need to lay it down...seriously lay it down and trust that all will be well...I mean it never solves anything this constant worry and pacing back in forth...and yet I still do it...a lot...I need to get the heck out of the tunnel and change my perspective here...life is meant to be lived and not dreaded...it's just that  there is so many details to daily living that if I forget one...bad things happen...really bad things...I need a winning lottery ticket...I guess I should actually BUY a lottery ticket if I expect to win...for example today this happened...three weeks ago Miss Courtney's Vusion Diaper Cream (miconazole nitrate 0.25% USP, zinc oxide 15% USP, white petroleum 81.35% USP) which we have used for over ten years to help prevent rashes and skin breakdown in her diaper area, was a $15 co-pay. Now with our new insurance plan going into effect on July 1, it is $375 per 50 gram tube!!!! That's with insurance!! After my eyes bugged out of my head...I took a deep breath...kindly told the pharmacist no...came home steaming....I cannot handle any more today...Nope...I cannot...what will I use that will help keep my girl safe from skin breakdown and rashes...have.no.odea...see...focused on the negative....tunnel vision...aahhhhhh...we are so blessed...He surprises us ALL the time...God has provided ALWAYS...why can't I just lay it down and walk away believing all will be well...why can't I be happy and content with what has already been provided...I am what we call an "apocaloptimist"...God is good ALL the time...He will provide ALL we need WHEN we need it...He will never abandon...He is always with us...He is still writing our daughter's story...He is still writing my story...miracles abound...every day...I forget that way to easily...we are blessed...very, very blessed...all will be well...Jesus I trust in YOU...all will be well...in HIS time...

Thursday, July 17, 2014

pretty, happy, funny, real ~ vol. 12...homemaking and miracles

I woke up with the grumpies this morning and am trying hard to shake them off.  It happens when I have a lot on my mind and heart, as I try to work through some worries in my life. I decided this morning to concentrate on what I could control and let go of what I cannot. I gotta say that it is so much easier said than done, but I am determined to give it my best. 

SO let's concentrate on the {pretty, happy,funny, real} shall we...


Jerry and I are marriage mentors at our parish. We assigned a couple from one of the priests and then we meet with them once a month for six months answering questions, counseling them and making sure they are fully prepared for entering into the sacrament. The priest that will marry them joins us once or twice along the way, as well as meeting with the couple on on one. We have been a part of this ministry for four years now and it is one of Jerry's and my favorite things to be a part of. 

Since Catholics are known for eating and praying, we usually share a meal with the couple before we talk about that months topic. My friend Marjanna's Mom is downsizing so I was the lucky recipient of this beautiful vintage strawberry table cloth from the 1950's. I love it. It's just the right mix of color for me. I used it this past week when we hosted our couple for dinner. I have a red ceramic plate service for four that I used to make it pop. So happy with the result. 


This is my comfy spot in Courtney's room. I spend many hours in this chair praying and reading while Miss Courtney is sleeping or not, depending on the day/night. You notice the two blankets, both made by her aunts, the pillow by her cousin and the little stuffies are from her big brother and her Grandma G. It's my happy place in the house. I always feel like Our Lady is sitting right next to me in the chair. 

The rosaries that are hanging on the light fixture are used all the time. They are actually "wall hanging" rosaries, but I use them with Miss Courtney because they are big enough for her to "hold" loosely in her hands without causing her pain of discomfort. I found them years ago at a homeschooling conference. One of my best purchases to date. 

I have also been hand quilting this little baby quilt while sitting by Miss Courtney's side, while listening to a story or praise and worship music. It's part of a giveaway next week for NFP Awareness week on Simcha's blog. So much joy in being a part of that event. 


This is the top of one of Courtney's dressers. It has a picture of the Sacred Heart that was next to my Dad's bed for years, one of Our Lady from my friend Therese and a little quote from another friend. The lemon candle is the third one in the last four weeks. Now that we have the in's/out's of our daughters gastro intestinal situation figured out, her "output" has increased which is great but leads to some very fragrant diapers. Thank you Meyer Lemon scent for saving me and my nose. 

LOL! Always keeping it real here at Chez Lenaburg. Meyer Lemon Candle for the win!!


Fourteen years ago our lives were forever changed after we took Miss Courtney to Lourdes, France on a healing pilgrimage with the Knight and Dames of Malta, Federal Assoc. You can read all about it in "My Story" link above

Our Lady moved us deeply and profoundly affected the next steps we took in our faith journey, as a couple and as parents. Courtney received her First Communion there in a dress the Dames provided her. We have been in and out of touch over the years with other pilgrims as well as the Dames and Knights from that trip. 

Tuesday we were once again floored by the generosity and kindness of those individuals who took such good care of us all those years ago. It is no coincidence that on the Heaven Homecoming Day of St Nicholas Borobia this new refrigerator/freezer arrived to help provide extra storage for Miss Courtney's special meals which have to be made with tons of fresh ingredients. It is no coincidence that when praying for this particular provision, we prayed for the intercession of St. Nicholas and St. Rebecca Irene Cotell with the job and in less than four weeks, it was provided through the benevolence of those who care for the sick. 

Tears stream, my heart bursts with gratitude and I am humbly once more raising my hands in praise to the One who is forever faithful. To the Knights and Dames of Malta, Federal Assoc, my spoken thanks seem insignificant but we are so grateful for your gift. St. Nicholas and St Rebecca Irene, please continue to pray for us! Thank you for your gracious intersession. 

~ Capturing the context of contentment in everyday life ~

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