encouragement project 2014 ~ vol. 4...you are not alone...

It's Wednesday which means you get to hear/see me for our weekly visit. It's time for a little "Coffee for Your Heart" part of Holly Gerth's 2014 Encouragement Project. A moment to take a deep breath and spread a little love and encouragement over the interwebs.

Today's prompt is: You are not alone...

If I am completely honest, I didn't want to write this post today. It has been a challenging few days here. Nothing out of the ordinary, just a serious case of cabin fever, a ferocious battle with my inner critic and of course there is always something happening with Miss Courtney. 

When you look at my daily life and compare it to some of my peers, you might say "Wow...that's ummmm...a challenging path Mary."

That's a nice way to put it. 

Most days I am alone with my severely disabled daughter, changing adult diapers, feeding her mushy baby food, tube feedings and lots of medical appointments, therapy appointments and more messiness. I have been doing the same thing day in and day out for twenty-one years. 

If I compare my life to what the culture says I should be doing...well...it's total crap. I mean who wants to do this everyday, all day, every year in and out? 

This isn't what I planned. This isn't what I dreamed about as a little girl.

But God had a different plan. A better plan. 

This is where I am called to be. That cannot be denied. This is where God needs me to be. My daughter needs me here at this time in her life. She has no other advocate for her but me (and my husband). She has no one else to care for her but me. 

Doesn't she deserve the BEST I can give? Isn't her life worth as much as my own? 

So even on  those days when I feel alone and desperate for some sense of joy, I am not alone. God is with me. He is my joy. After all He gave me the gift of coffee and chocolate didn't He? He knew we Mama's would need the help. 

I just need to keep my heart open to Him and His provision. I need to allow others to help me in this journey. 

I am not alone and neither are you. 

Encouragement Video #4 - You are not alone... from Mary Lenaburg on Vimeo.

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