Today I woke up with a heavy heart and my sweet Courtney on my mind. My eyes have leaked on and off and I have spoken to her softly letting her know how much I miss her. 

I canceled our evening plans because the thought of being social, even with close friends, makes my head hurt and my hands shake. So tonight the house will be quiet and I will head to bed early. It's the only thing that helps on days like today. 

Grief makes no sense to me some days. Everything is fine and isn't. 

Oh my sweet Courtney girl, I love you so much and I miss your BEAUTIFUL face, the sound of you sleeping in my arms and the smell of the apple shampoo in your curly hair. 

I ache today from missing you. 

I just do. 

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