Friday, May 29, 2015

aching...


Today I woke up with a heavy heart and my sweet Courtney on my mind. My eyes have leaked on and off and I have spoken to her softly letting her know how much I miss her. 

 I canceled our evening plans because the thought of being social, even with close friends, makes my head hurt and my hands shake. So tonight the house will be quiet and I will head to bed early. It's the only thing that helps on days like today. 

 Grief makes no sense to me some days. Everything is fine and then...it isn't. 

Oh my sweet Courtney girl, I love you so much and I miss your BEAUTIFUL face, the sound of you sleeping in my arms and the smell of the apple shampoo in your curly hair. 

 I ache today from missing you. 

 I just do. 


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9 comments:

  1. KerryMay 29, 2015 at 3:05 PM

    God bless you!

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  2. SharonabelleMay 29, 2015 at 4:06 PM

    <3

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  3. UnknownMay 29, 2015 at 9:02 PM

    Dear Mary, it is fine not to be fine sometimes, pain it is a strange beast. Stay strong! Hugs!

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  4. Michele ChronisterMay 29, 2015 at 9:13 PM

    Prayers for you, sweet Mary!

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  5. Maryann E.May 30, 2015 at 8:54 AM

    I'm praying that the waves of grief will become a little more gentle soon.

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  6. UnknownMay 30, 2015 at 11:07 AM

    It's a journey with rest stops on the way!! Praying you have courage and peace today

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  7. LaineMay 30, 2015 at 1:14 PM

    Thank you for sharing your honest feelings, Mary. I'm so sorry today is so hard for you. You will be on my mind all day, with many prayers.
    -Elaine

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  8. JeannieMay 30, 2015 at 3:56 PM

    HUGS, Mary. I know the ache of grief and how the waves sometimes crash upon us at the most unexpected of times...

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  9. MaRiaJune 1, 2015 at 3:05 PM

    "There are places
    Where grace is
    Soon to be so amazing..."
    --Selah

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