This morning everything was going along just fine and then I checked my email. I opened it up and WHAMMO...
It felt like I got sucker punched in the gut. I wasn't prepared. I was just reading my email and there it was. Two weeks from now it would have been Courtney's 23rd birthday. Remember last year? Remember the stress happening all around us as we prepared for the big day? Remember the celebration filled with so much joy and love? Remember all the love that came through the mail, the pictures, cards, decorations?
I knew deep in my heart that we needed to celebrate. I knew that things were changing at that time and so I reached out to you beautiful people and you just blew us away with your love, prayers and good wishes. The day finally arrived and it was the most beautiful day. God outdid himself that day. He truly did.
Courtney has taught our family to SEE the world and God in a most wonderful way. There were so many days of quite desperation, where I would cry out to the Lord to make it all end, to bring her home. He did. In His time.
The lessons and love she has left behind for us are still being revealed as we can handle them. We always chose love with our girl. No matter what situation we were facing. The more we loved, the easier the hard stuff got to bear.
As my day went on, Courtney sent people to love me where I was. Melanie came with flowers and facebook lit up with messages of hope, laughter and so much love. My nieces arrived from southern Virginia for a 48 hour visit and I walked away from the sadness and stayed present in the moment.
As I was chatting with my nieces an idea was born. Why not celebrate her birthday as we did last year??
Por que you say? What do you mean, Mary?
I mean let's celebrate Courtney's legacy of love. Here's what I need YOU ( I mean ALL of you, no matter age or sex, reading this) to do.
I need you to answer this question...How has Courtney affected you? How has her story impacted your life? How has her intercession helped you or family?
As Jerry and I prepare for her birthday in two weeks, it would be such a gift to us to know how our sweet girl has spoken to you. I have decided to make a scrapbook of sorts. I have one of photos that my freind Janet (Hi Janet) gave me that I am writing the stories too.
I would love to have a book of testimonies and shared stories of how our girl changed hearts, impacted lives, made you smile or laugh or even cry or pray for the very first time (true. I have the email).
You can send it snail mail in a note or card ( I heart snail mail so much). You can email me at email@example.com to get our address. Just put "project blessing" in the memo line.
You can have your kids draw what they think Courtney looks like in heaven or whatever their little hearts wish to. You can leave it in a comment here on the blog.You can also send it in an email (address above).I can print it out and put it in the book.
Whatever you choose to do, however you choose to do it is fine. Let's celebrate Courtney's legacy of faith, love and hope.
What say you fine readers? You in?
Let "Project Blessing - Reclaiming the Joy of Courtney's Birthday" begin. Please feel free to share this post with whomever you feel like. The more the merrier.
I love you sweet Courtney and I miss you every single day. I promise to stay in the light of God's love and away from the dark tunnels of doubt and depression. You deserve that and so much more.
Bring it on internet...Ready...set...go...
Our new goal is $3,209.00 which will eliminate the balance on a credit card used for Courtney's PT, OT and Feeding therapies and supplies used over the last five years. We have raised $720 of it so far. Only $2489.00 to go to pay this first one off. If we can raise the full amount, we can pay it off and be that much closer to our larger goal. One thing at a time. Thank you so much for your help.
help pay off medical debt from caring for our beautiful Courtney
The entire medical debt is extensive, now approx. $67,3000. It's a lot and will take years to whittle down. Anything helps. Anything. So, I will keep it at the bottom of my posts for awhile. You all have already given so much to our family. Our prayers are with you and we are so very grateful. We can never repay that kindness. So thank you...just thank you. If you would like our mailing address, please just email me at firstname.lastname@example.org and I will send it.
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